Nicole Scherzinger has opened up about her abandonment issues that stem from her childhood.
The former Pussycat Dolls singer has revealed that her biological father “left her as a child.”
The Hawaiian native Alfonso Valiente “walked out on Nicole and her mother Rosemary Elikolani when she was just three years old.”
Although the 45-year-old grew up with her loving stepfather Gary Scherzinger, who adopted her as a child and let her take his surname, she admitted the abandonment has still affected her.
Speaking on the How to Fail with Elizabeth Day podcast, Nicole confessed: “I definitely have abandonment issues and that is because my actual biological father did leave me, I think when I was three.”
“And so I didn’t think it would ever affect me, but I guess somewhere it did affect me. So I definitely have my own issues with that for sure.”
Nicole also has a younger half-sister Keala who shares the same mother as her but not the same father.
Nicole also opened up about how her trauma has helped her to relate to her character Norma Desmond who she is playing in the Broadway production of Sunset Boulevard.
“I have really strong abandonment issues, unfortunately, which is wonderful for my character, Norma in [Sunset Boulevard]. See, it all ties back to that.”
“It brought me back, and Norma has huge abandonment issues. She feels so abandoned in her life, so empty, so lonely, and it all just ties into it. It’s like, it was just a line meant to be that I was meant to play this role one day.”
Nicole also reminisced on her Pussycat Dolls days and the success they had at such a young age.
She admitted: “It was crazy, I was so young. We were all so young and my neurotic brain just never shut off. So I wasn’t really living ever in the present.”
“I think that was my biggest failure back then. I was always thinking of the future of ‘what’s the next hit? How can we make this better? What are we doing next?'”
“And that was probably my biggest failure back then was not enjoying the fruits of our labour and we worked so hard, but I love the girls.”
“We were really a sisterhood, always will be, I believe. I was really proud of the work that we did, the music that we did with the honour of having Ron Fair and Jimmy Irvine produce it,” she concluded.
