Kate Garraway has revealed that she “doesn’t feel loved” by her late husband Derek Draper in an upcoming documentary.
On Tuesday, Kate Garraway: Derek’s Story, will air on ITV, depicting the former lobbyist’s final year of life before his death in January aged 56.
The film captures the reality of Derek’s struggles and the effect of his illness on those around him.
In a scene from the upcoming documentary, Kate was asked if she “accepts you’ll have to care for him forever?”
She answered: “That bit yes I have accepted that completely. I think that’s our role. But how that translates into the relationship is a work in progress.”
“Sometimes you show love with a big bouquet of roses or bringing a cup of tea and he can’t do any of that for me.”
Kate also got candid about Derek’s struggle to showcase his emotion to her in his final year.
She revealed: “So he’s trying to work out how to love me. I know he loves me but how does he show that?”
“I’m trying to work out if I feel loved by him.”
“I know I am but we’ve got a whole journey there.”
“The tragedy for me is that it feels like his brain was his best friend and now it’s his worst enemy.”
Detailing a rough patch he was going through at the time of the documentary, Kate shared: “He has been very down.”
‘”ondering about the future a lot of crying. ‘I’ve let everybody down and what is the meaning of life? what can I contribute?'”
“The thing that helps that is having that sense of purpose, remind him these things take time even if I don’t really know if that’s the answer.”
Derek’s Story features him talking on camera for the first time since his health battle as he voiced: “I want to be heard.”
