The final episode of Keeping Up With The Kardashians aired in the US on Thursday night.
During the finale, Kim Kardashian opened up about her relationship struggles with Kanye West, and hinted she was ready to end their marriage.
In one emotional scene, Kim’s mother Kris Jenner asked how she was doing, and admitted she was “worried” about her.
The 40-year-old revealed she was “going to a therapist”, who helped her realise that she just wants “total happiness”.
“I know obviously complete bliss is like, not a full reality, but if I can have it more of the majority of the time, that’s all I want to do, wherever that takes me,” she explained.
“I just want my pure happiness, so that’s what I’m working on figuring out how to get there.”
“I just feel like I’ve worked so hard in life to achieve everything that I’ve wanted to, and I’ve lived up to my expectations and achieved 10 times more than I even thought was humanly possible.”
“But I don’t have a life to share that with,” Kim said, referencing her troubles with Kanye. “Like, I do – obviously my kids and everything – but am I just gonna sit here and think, ‘Okay, my kids fulfill me, and I’m good?'”
Kim and Kanye share four children together – North, 7, Saint, 5, Chicago, 3, and Psalm, 2.
The SKIMS founder also admitted Kanye being away all the time was taking a toll on her.
“I never thought I was lonely … I always thought that’s totally fine, I could just have my kids, my husband moves from state to state,” she said.
“And I just am on this ride with him, and I was okay with that and then after turning 40 this year, I realized like, ‘No, I don’t want a husband that lives in a completely different state to me.’ I thought, ‘Oh my God, that’s when we’re getting along the best,’ but then that is sad to me, and that’s not what I want.”
“I want someone that we have the same shows in common. I want someone that wants to work out with me every single day … the little things are what I don’t have,” Kim explained.
“I have all the big things. I have the extravagant, everything you could possibly imagine – and no one will ever do it like that, I know that, you know what I mean? And I’m grateful for those experiences – but I think I’m ready for the smaller experiences that I think will mean a lot.”
Kris then said: “I just want you to be happy and joyful. And I think I haven’t seen that in a really long time.”
Kim replied: “Yeah, and I’m ready too, whatever that is, like, I’m not rushing it. I’m not like, I don’t have any final decisions that I want to make.”
After Kris started to get emotional, Kim said: “Don’t cry! I’m not like, gonna have a breakdown and cry when you leave. I’m numb like, I’m tired of that, but I do know that I will be happy. I didn’t come this far just to come this far, and not be happy.”
During a confessional, Kris added: “It breaks my heart because I just want them to be happy. And I want her to be joyful, and have the best relationship that she can possibly have. And she has four beautiful kids. So I just want them to be happy.”
Since the episode was filmed, Kim has filed for divorce from Kanye after almost seven years of marriage – and they’ve requested joint custody of their four kids.
