Hollyoaks’ Kirsty-Leigh Porter shares heartbreaking tribute on stillborn baby’s due date

Kirsty-Leigh Porter has paid tribute to her stillborn baby, on what would have been her due date.

The Hollyoaks star and her fiancé Paul were left devastated when their baby girl was stillborn in December.

The 30-year-old shared a heartbreaking post on Instagram, and admitted that she’s been “dreading this day” for the last few weeks.

She wrote: “After that very first scan, my life changed, and it became all about you, after the dating scan, everything was all leading up to this date. The date I could NOT wait for, is finally here and it’s nothing how I had thought it would be.”

 

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Today is your due date, 5th of March 2019. I never would have imagined feeling how I feel about it today. For the last few weeks I have been dreading this day. What a huge contrast to the months of excitement I felt from the moment we were told you would be due here today. After that very first scan, my life changed, and it became all about you, after the dating scan, everything was all leading up to this date. The date I could NOT wait for, is finally here and it’s nothing how I had thought it would be. I can’t help imagining, would you have been here by now? Or would you have kept us waiting longer and stayed tucked up past today? Either way I don’t get to hold you in my arms. I wish I would have treasured much more every single flutter I felt, every little movement, every little kick you gave me whilst safely wrapped up inside my tummy, if only I knew then how much they would mean now. Sleep well baby girl ????????????❤️

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The actress admitted: “I wish I would have treasured much more every single flutter I felt, every little movement, every little kick you gave me whilst safely wrapped up inside my tummy, if only I knew then how much they would mean now. Sleep well baby girl.”

The picture she shared was of an ocean, alongside the quote: “Missing you comes in waves, tonight I’m drowning.”