Holly Hagan has shed light on the dark side of her Geordie Shore fame, as she opened up about being ‘groped’ during nightclub appearances.
The 27-year-old appeared as an original cast member on the MTV show back in 2011, when she was just 18-years-old.
After finding fame on the controversial reality series, cast members made a lot of money by doing PA’s across the UK and Ireland in between filming.
Speaking on BBC Radio 1’s The Reality Tea Podcast with Raj and Pilar, Holly said most of the time their club appearances were far from glamourous.
Holly said: “I would go to club appearances and people would think because I’ve been this person on TV that they had the god given right to just turn around and grab my boob or try and put their hand up my skirt.”
“It was honestly probably one of the most scariest times of my life. I used to go to the cubs in jeans and long tops because if I wore anything that was actually clubby, I put myself more at risk.
She continued: “If my boobs were out I was more at risk. If I had a skirt on I was more at risk of someone putting their hand up it.”
“And I actually started, when I’d get photos with people, keep my bum pressed against the wall so that no one could slip their hand down.”
Holly also opened up about being subject to vile verbal abuse in public, which left her suffering from panic attacks.
The reality star said she’s had members of the public call her a “fat s**g”, and would constantly overhear people talking about her.
She said: “Me and Sophie [Kasaei] for example, were getting a lot of stick because we weren’t seen as the pretty ones.”
“We weren’t seen as the skinny ones and we were having much more of a hard time then say Charlotte [Crosby] or Vicky [Pattison] were because they were size eight and pretty.”
The Geordie beauty said the abuse contributed to her obsession with cosmetic surgery, and the idea of being “perfect”.
Holly explained: “You think, ‘Oh well, I’ll just go and get it fixed, maybe people won’t say things about me anymore if I just get this little thing fixed.'”
“But it then becomes like a vicious cycle… all these little things then have a knock on effect to the rest of your face. So it’s really easy to end up going overboard which at points I have… It’s kind of like the things I did do, were for other people’s gratification.”