Ashley Cain is marking his first birthday since the death of his daughter Azaylia.
The Ex on the Beach star’s eight-month-old baby died on April 24, following a battle with a rare and aggressive form of leukemia.
Taking to Instagram on Monday afternoon on his 31st birthday, Ashley shared a sweet photo with his baby girl, as he opened up about his heartache.
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He wrote: “It’s my birthday, but it’s not a happy day for me. It’s a heartbreaking one, because all I want today is to hold you in my arms.”
“Until this day becomes reality again, I will spend my life honouring your legacy, making you proud and earning my place to have you in my arms once again. In doing so, I hope and I pray that my devotion to you will help, change and save so many precious lives on the way.”
“My birthday is no longer about me, it’s not about celebration… It’s about battling my emotions, battling these elements and committing to my promises to make a difference in this world until I am no longer here.”
Ashley continued: “If you are listening baby, I want you to not worry about your daddy, because you gave me enough love, happiness and strength to last a thousand life times.”
“I am not punishing myself, I am simply unlocking my full and true potential because of the power and purpose that you gave me.”
“I am sad because I love you and I miss you more than words can explain, but I am blessed to have you as my daughter, honoured to have been chosen to be your father and whole heartedly committed to doings gods work here on earth to be with you once again! 👼🏼🧡🦁🙏🏾” he added.