Vogue Williams opens up about her father’s death: ‘I blame myself’

Vogue Williams has opened up about the pain of losing her father – and admitted that she partially blames herself for his death.

The model’s father, Freddie, passed away from a stroke back in 2010, after going under the knife to remove an aneurysm.

“In a weird way, I blame myself a little for him dying,” Vogue said.

“I pushed him to get the operation out of the way, when maybe he should have waited a little longer and had more of a life.”

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“I also feel I should have been more vocal when he didn’t seem right after the operation because they might have caught that last stroke earlier, but such is life.”

In Vogue’s debut book, Everything, the 31-year-old recalls the night her father died in hospital.

“Myself, my sister and my aunt had to meet with ­the surgeon to decide what to do next, and whether or not we should turn off Dad’s life ­support machine.

“I didn’t want to — I wanted to give him more time to fight — but in hindsight that was selfish. He would have had no quality of life if my sister and aunt Sharon had not made the decision to let him go.”

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“It was six o’clock on a Friday when I watched my dad die as I held his hand. I could see the life leave him and then he was gone. It can just happen so quickly — suddenly. That’s it, someone you love is gone.”

“I speak about my dad a lot because I love remembering him. It’s only when I’ve had a drink that I might get upset,” she explained.

Speaking to the RTÉ Guide, Vogue revealed how important it was to include the loss of her father in her new book – no matter how painful it was to write down.

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“I wasn’t sure how much I was going to go into it but then I just started writing and I couldn’t stop. It’s important to remember him and for other ­people to know about him.

“He’s gone almost seven years, but in many ways its feels likes yesterday. I couldn’t write that part of the book without having him in it. He was such a big part of my life,” she said.

“He watched me on Ireland AM modelling and was ringing all my aunts and uncles, holding on to all the papers I was in. He was very proud.”