Irish model Jeremy McConnell has opened up about his struggle with cocaine abuse.
The Celebrity Big Brother contestant is supporting The Sun Online’s End Of The Line campaign, which aims to raise awareness about the dangers of cocaine and it’s mental health impacts.
Speaking to Sun Online, Jeremy said: “I feel sick when I look back at myself, I’m so ashamed.”
“I was only focused on was good looking women and drink.
“Then I was offered cocaine when I was 20 at a party and it took over.
He continued: “I didn’t even start drinking until I was 18 as I was so into my football and fitness but cocaine was easy to fall into as it was everywhere – I didn’t have to go to any lengths to get it as it was so cheap and easy to get. I started using it more and more.”
While he says he was not an every-day user, he would use cocaine heavily on nights out and into the next day.
“Once you get that hit you want more. But the after effects are horrific, I felt depressed and guilty all the time, along with regret. Your mind is flooded with negative feelings. What goes up must come down, and that’s the pattern.”
The model says he reached rock bottom after being sentenced to prison for assaulting his ex girlfriend and mother of his child Stephanie Davis. He told the paper how he understands how Love Island contestants Sophie Gradon and Mike Thalassistis could have felt when they made their final decisions.
“I can see where it all went wrong for them,” he said.
“When you go onto a reality show and you make this stupid money and then it all dries up – it fades – and you need a window of opportunity to return to real life and do something else and if you don’t get that, then it can affect you mentally.”
“You’re last year’s flavour – and it’s too late because you’ve already sacrificed yourself, people think they know you and the anxiety is horrible when people come up to you and you try to get a real job.”
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