Top Irish model and accessories entrepreneur Holly Carpenter has opened up about how her earliest experiences with sexuality left her feeling ‘worthless.’
Holly candidly and openly discussed her feelings in a newly screened documentary called Woman, by French Film Maker Yann Arthus-Bertrand.
Speaking in 2017, as the film was shot over three years, Holly explained how she felt pressure to lose her virginity.
She said: “The first time I had sex wasn’t great. I was drunk and I just didn’t really remember it. So, I kinda only did it because one of my best friends had sex and everyone was saying ‘Are you still a virgin? Are you still a virgin?’”, details The Sun.
“It was this big thing. So, I kinda just wanted to get it out of the way.”
“And now it’s something I am quite ashamed of,” she explained.
“I feel like the first time I had sex I was drunk but it was one of those things, it just happened and then, I just didn’t really want to think about it, which isn’t great.”
“But I think that kinda set the tone then, for me, I didn’t really know much about sex or . . . I felt really ashamed of myself.”
“Because I just felt like I had been out of control and I’m not saying I’m a victim of anything really and it is not a great way to have your first experience, so it made me feel a bit worthless.”
The full documentary is due to be released in 2020. It aims to portray the true stories of women all over the world.