Amber Heard says Johnny Depp was ‘generous and loving’ when sober – but ‘the other side of him was a monster’

The actress has taken the witness stand in London's High Court for the final time

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Amber Heard has told London’s High Court that Johnny Depp was “generous and loving” when he was sober, but said “the other side of him was a monster”.

The actress took the witness stand for the fourth and final time today, amid her ex-husband’s libel trial against The Sun’s publisher News Group Newspapers – over a 2018 article that labelled him “wife beater”.

Amber was called to the witness stand by NGN lawyers to help defend the article, as they’re trying to prove that Johnny was physically abusive towards her – a claim he has continuously denied.

In court today, Amber described being “so in love” with the Pirates of the Caribbean star when he was sober.

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“I didn’t want to talk about everything that happened in our marriage or relationships. I didn’t want the world or his kids to know who he was, and what he could do.”

“I was so in love with Johnny at that time. We had had a wonderful year together where he was sober and clean and that is how I got to know him,” she explained.

“And Johnny, when he was like that, (is) generous, loving, he is a remarkable man when he is like that.”

“I loved him and I didn’t want to lose that… the other side of him was a monster, but I always held out hope that he would get clean and sober,” she said.

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In court today, NGN’s barrister Sasha Wass QC also gave details of text messages that Amber had sent to her late mother – Paige Heard – during her relationship with Johnny.

“It’s terrible, mum. I don’t know what to do,” one read, another saying: “He’s nuts, mum. Violent and crazy. I’m heartbroken that this is who I love.”

“I feel like I’m on a very fast train that’s about to explode, but I don’t want to jump off and leave my love behind. So I stay on the train, even though I know it’s about to explode,” a third read.

Amber also spoke more about the “three-day hostage situation”, which is alleged to have taken place in March 2015 in their rented home in Australia.

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The actress described the state of the house, and said: “There was blood everywhere… I thought it was from my feet but it wasn’t.”

“I thought it was paint, a kind of brownish colour, on the walls. It was dark brown at first, then lightened out to a milky brown colour.”

She also claimed there was “blood on the walls, on lampshades and everywhere with written messages”.

“He had burned though cushions and lampshades… There was a couch flipped over. It appeared he had set fire to one of the cushions because the couch was burned around it.”


“There was a broken window… My paints were out, it appears to be he had either thrown or dropped paint on the floor and on the wall. There was both paint and blood, I could see textures,” she continued.

“I found raw meat, at first I didn’t know what it was on the floor. I continued to find it for the next day hidden in various places.”

“He had taken my nightgown and wrapped it around pieces of food. I had got food out the night before, but not got round to making it.”

“I could see my own bloody footprints, and what appeared to be dripping blood.”

“I made it downstairs and there was death metal blasting out. There was blood and glass everywhere, and the floor was still wet. There were windows broken. There was so much glass I could barely find a path to walk. The ping pong table was broken and on the ground.”

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When asked what happened to Johnny’s severed finger, Amber claimed “it occurred about 24-hours into his binge”.

“He held me up against the fridge and said over and over again that he wished he had never met me and I’d ruined his life. he said I made him drink and I always did this.”

“He held a bottle up to my face and said he’d cut me. At some point I pushed him, and tried to push his arms away.”

The actress said Johnny was “out of his mind”, and that he severed his finger when he smashed a phone against the wall.


Amber told the court on Tuesday that she endured physical and psychological violence from her ex-husband when he fell into a “drug and alcohol binge” during their trip to Australia.

Earlier in the trial, Johnny denied claims he abused Amber during the trip, and accused her of severing his finger by throwing a vodka bottle at him.

“Amber severed my finger with the second of two thrown vodka bottles at me in the early afternoon of Sunday March 8,” he claimed.

“Amber claims this was on the second day of a ‘three-day hostage situation’. Amber claims that during these three days, I subjected her to a variety of what sounds like torture and other abuse. These sick claims are completely untrue.”