Sophie Turner opened up about her struggle with depression.
The 23-year-old revealed that she used to believe the hateful things online trolls said about her on social media and felt alone when her friends and brothers moved away for college.
Speaking to Dr. Phil on his podcast, Phil in the Blanks the actress said: “It only started to kind of go downhill I think when I started to hit puberty, and really puberty, though, at like 17.”
“My metabolism was like slowing down massively, and I was gaining weight. And then there was the social media scrutiny and everything, and that was when it kind of hit me.”
Sophie added that she would believe everything online trolls would say about her appearance and acting: “I would just believe it. I would just say, ‘Yeah, I am spotty. Yeah I am fat. I am a bad actress.’ And I just believed it.”
“I would just believe it. I would get [the costume department] to tighten my corset a lot. I just got very, very self-conscious,” she continued.
“I had no motivation to do anything or go out. Even with my best friends, I wouldn’t want to see them, I wouldn’t want to go out and eat with them.”
The actress continued to say that her depression got so bad that she couldn’t go outside: “I just would cry and cry and cry over just getting changed and putting on clothes and be like, ‘I can’t do this. I can’t go outside. I have nothing that I want to do.'”
“I’ve suffered with my depression for five or six years now. The biggest challenge for me is getting out of bed and getting out of the house. Learning to love yourself is the biggest challenge.”
Sophie added that she used to think about suicide when she was younger, but doesn’t think she ever would have done it.
“It’s weird. I say I wasn’t very depressed when I was younger, but I used to think about suicide a lot when I was younger. I don’t know why though. Maybe it’s just a weird fascination I used to have, but yeah, I used to think about it. I don’t think I ever would have gone through with it. I don’t know.”
The Game of Thrones star said that she is now on medication and that her fiancé, Joe Jonas’ constant support helps her.
“I love myself now, or more than I used to, I think. I don’t think I love myself at all, but I’m now with someone that makes me realise, you know, that I do have some redeeming qualities I suppose.”
“When someone tells you they love you every day, it makes you really think about why that is, and I think it makes you love yourself a little bit more, so, yeah, I love myself.”