Mel B snorted six lines of cocaine a day, while judging on The X Factor.
The singer was a judge on the show in 2014 and has said that she never took the drug during filming.
In her autobiography, ‘Brutally Honest’, serialised exclusively in The Sun on Sunday, the singer wrote: “I was so low that two weeks into filming The X Factor I’d started using cocaine to get me through the run of the show.”
“To get me through living with Stephen, which felt like neurotic claustrophobia. On so many levels I felt myself sinking. I had a routine. I was ashamed of what I was doing, but I felt I had to have it,” the singer revealed, speaking of her marriage with Stephen Belafonte, which ended last year.
“I told myself God would understand and forgive me because he could see through all the glitter and the crap. He could see me. The mess. And cocaine could help that mess. Just for now. It numbed my pain.”
The mother-of-three insisted that she never took the drug during the live shows and said that she doesn’t think the cocaine effected her performance as a judge on the show.
“I’d crack jokes with Simon and the other judges and have a laugh with the crew. But as soon as I left the building, it was like in Cinderella, where everything turns back to s**t and rats and pumpkins.”
“I’m not proud of taking cocaine, but I can’t pretend it didn’t help me to have a line of that white powder when I got up in the morning,” she continued.
“Sitting in my car a few minutes before I’d faced Stephen, I’d snorted a line. And he knew it. The truth was, I was kidding myself that I had found a magic formula for dealing with my life. The cocaine only made my depression worse, and I was permanently anxious and on edge.”
The singer said that the drugs badly affected her mental state and marriage, as she claimed that her husband would constantly check up on her and verbally abuse her regarding her drug use, as well as physically abuse her.
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