Vogue Williams has posted a sweet snap of herself and her late father, Freddie, on his birthday.
The model’s father passed away from a stroke back in 2010, after going under the knife to remove an aneurysm.
On her Instagram Story this morning, Vogue shared a throwback snap of her cuddling her dad and wrote, “My lovely dad would have been 76 today!”
In Vogue’s debut book, Everything, she opened up about how she blames herself for her father’s untimely death.
“In a weird way, I blame myself a little for him dying. I pushed him to get the operation out of the way, when maybe he should have waited a little longer and had more of a life,” she wrote.
“I also feel I should have been more vocal when he didn’t seem right after the operation because they might have caught that last stroke earlier, but such is life.”
The TV presenter also recalled the night her father died in hospital.
“Myself, my sister and my aunt had to meet with the surgeon to decide what to do next, and whether or not we should turn off Dad’s life support machine.
“I didn’t want to — I wanted to give him more time to fight — but in hindsight that was selfish. He would have had no quality of life if my sister and aunt Sharon had not made the decision to let him go.”
“It was six o’clock on a Friday when I watched my dad die as I held his hand. I could see the life leave him and then he was gone. It can just happen so quickly — suddenly. That’s it, someone you love is gone.”
“I speak about my dad a lot because I love remembering him. It’s only when I’ve had a drink that I might get upset,” she explained.
Speaking to the RTÉ Guide, Vogue revealed how important it was to include the loss of her father in her new book – no matter how painful it was to write down.
“I wasn’t sure how much I was going to go into it but then I just started writing and I couldn’t stop. It’s important to remember him and for other people to know about him.”
“He’s gone almost seven years, but in many ways its feels likes yesterday. I couldn’t write that part of the book without having him in it. He was such a big part of my life,” she said.
“He watched me on Ireland AM modelling and was ringing all my aunts and uncles, holding on to all the papers I was in. He was very proud.”
Meanwhile, Vogue is currently expecting her first child with boyfriend Spencer Matthews.
