Sinead O’Connor started planning her funeral twice last week after being taken to hospital in intense pain.
The Nothing Compares 2 U star was convinced she was going to die and said she was “planning for me kids twice in one week, thinking I’m croaking”.
She said: “We start making plans as to if I croak between Friday night and Saturday morning, how I don’t want the kids seeing my body and such.”
Sinead got her life in order with an ex-husband after experiencing the “most physically traumatic experience I’ve ever had that didn’t result in a baby”.
Last Thursday – after two days suffering at home in Bray – the mum-of-four’s sister took her to A&E after becoming convinced she “could croak any minute.”
She said: “Tuesday I get seized by pain that feels like all my back ribs and all front are broken.
“Literally as if someone stamped all over me and smashed them, or as if someone beat the shit out of me, or I got run over by a car.
“Doctor comes, says if it ain’t gone in two days to go hospital. Thursday night its way worse. So my sister takes me to hospital.
“They rush us to another hospital saying I have an abdominal aneurysm. So we’re thinking okay, I could croak any minute and we start making plans as to how the kids will be okay.”
Happier: Sinead in the recording studio
Eventually, Sinead was told by the hospital that she has a kidney stone and is sent home with Solpadeine tablets.
But Sinead was then left in even worse pain just a day later and faces a midnight doctor visit.
Writing on her website, she added: “I’m on all fours fucking crying my eyes out in pain. Can’t find a place to be that will stop it and the Solpadeine does’t do Jack.
“Doctor comes at midnight, gives me demerol shot, says he thinks I have a blood clot on my lung and I’m to get to hospital that night.
“I go into shock, make him leave, swearing I’ll call and let him get ambulance but I don’t ‘cus I’m so worn out from the previous night in hospital.
“And, the level of pain I was having to carry and the physical effort required had left me just fucked.”
Sinead then visited hospital again on Saturday, where doctors tell her that her kidney stone shouldn’t be causing so much pain – and she is beaten down from her personal life.
She said: “[The doctor] asks me have I been upset about anything. I sob quietly and say, ‘Yes, something extremely traumatic happened about a week ago’. He says, ‘There’s your problem.’
“Sent home with massive painkillers, doped up to fucking eyeballs all weekend. Fucking drugs and CAT scan dyes, and holes in my arms from needles. Body, mind, heart and soul all in utter shock.”
She added: “Never experienced anything like it in my life, such a physical reaction to an emotional trauma.”
